Diary - March 30, 1963

Dearest Divine Mother,

Many things have happened to me lately and I feel the need to write of them.  I am working again with my father (something that was furthest from my mind during February 1962) in order to earn passage for Anne.  Anne and I are working very well now, the vibrations between us are usually very harmonious.  I have asked her to prepare herself for this long journey into the soul and I am certain that she will.

I thought of Thee often this day and meditated on the words Thou hast spoken to me.  When I call to Thee a calm enters me and although I cannot feel Thee deep within my heart center as yet, I know ?Thou art with me.  I read some of Th works at night and try to absorb as much as possible.

Mother, most Divine and Transcendent, grant that I may learn more quickly the way to offer myself to the Divine.  These days are days of battle with old ways and habits, the meeting again with relatives and the old thoughts and feelings that come in when one return to the place of his childhood and youth.  Grant, O Blessed Mother that I may look calmly at these things and disperse them when needed.

Last Tuesday evening I shaved my beard.  It was important to do so.  I learned many things from doing it, mainly that it affect or changed absolutely nothing!!!  All that is important to my progress has remained and is collecting itself and intensifying.